Roller Coaster....

What a week it has been.

Sad, Angry, Abandoned, Happy, Lonely, Excited, Dread, Peace, Hostile, Bitter, Relaxed, Tired, Exhausted, Lucky, Cheated.

All things I have felt in the past few days and many things I have not named.

It's good to be home. The funeral was nice, as nice as one can be I guess. There was some family that it was nice to see, and I got to spend time with my parents and sister. Now I'm tired. But going to the UT vs. UAB game tomorrow. Go vols!!!!

AND....MY DRESS IS FINISHED!!!!!!! It is ready for pick up altered and all! I'm so relieved!

Well...it's bed time...

<3 Lorie

1 week down...a million to go...

So, it gets a little better, and a little easier every day! This weekend was super busy! He had to work Saturday, and Sunday we actually got the chance to participate in a young adults activity. It was nice, and I'm feeling better and better about being at a big church. The people there are great, and so giving. The singing is beautiful. Not to mention he got me flowers and took me to the Chop House for our 1 year. Pink Roses. =]. I love him. As well as things are going, I must admit, I'm a little discouraged these days. I mean...it's hard being away from home...but that's not it. It's hard knowing that someone is working to destroy you. Most days I ignore it, but I'm so frustrated with not being able to do anything with out these people trying to one-up us. I don't care if they do everything better than us forever...I just wish they would stop paying so much attention to our lives, that people who barely even know us recognize that they are trying to do everything that we do...but better. I'm just so tired...I'm tired of being excited, and being brought down because you insist on not letting me have my moment. I am only getting married one time. I only want a simple wedding. I only want to marry the man of my dreams. Please back off. I'm tired, and just can't take it anymore. Like I said, most days I ignore it. But today it just seemed to really hit me...

So now...a wedding update...we got our pictures made. It was a lot of fun, and they turned out well! I love that she captured his laugh. His laugh makes me so happy, I can never express it in words. I might have to change the groomsmen's vest color. I don't think it matches as well as I thought it did, but that's okay. Silver would be pretty anyway since my girls are wearing silver shoes.

Speaking of silver shoes...I'M GOING TO VISIT MY SISTER AND MY NEPHEWS THIS WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am SOOO excited!!!! I've missed them so much! I think we're going to look for her shoes lol...but I'm super excited!

On top of that...I'm hoping that my bestie will come visit me soon...she has a friend who wants to come...so they may come up here together and that'll be so fun!!!

I'm hoping that my mom gets the napkins and cake topper I ordered soon...that'll be nice. I've purchased my bridesmaids gifts. Wedding bands...and food. And checking on my vests. And to print a couple little things to go in my invitations. That's it! Yay!!! =] Hope everyone has a good week!

<3 Lorie

Day 2 was better….

Day 2 at school was better…not great…but it’s getting there…we went to church tonight…the one I thought I wouldn’t like…but it’s getting better too…I guess it’s just a process.  I’m pretty excited about this weekend…we’re going to have a busy time…but fun…we’re going to visit Michael’s dad…and I’m going to a purse party…=] (insert HUGE smile here) lol…while I’m doing that with Val, Michael is going to work on his truck…we have quite a few little things to get done…but we’ll also get to sleep in…which I need after finally having to get up early every day again lol….anyway…that was just a small update on life in K-ville…I love my house.  Or my part of it anyway lol…And the people are greater than I could have imagined! All in all…things are looking up and I get a little better every day…

Just call me settled….

So…here I am…in Knoxville, TN.  Not yet home…but close I suppose.  I’m excited…the place I am staying is amazing….I am so grateful!  My mom and dad sent a lot of stuff with us…and we’re going smart shopping at Sam’s tomorrow…so we should eat just fine lol…the ride here wasn’t so bad…I of course cried leaving my house…but we had walkie talkies… the hard core kind that my dad let us borrow…so we had fun with that!  I’m pretty excited that Michael can actually call me now since I have signal almost everywhere lol!  Our weekend was amazing!  We had so much fun with family and friends!  I’ll tell more later about the weekend and about how things are going…but I’m sleepy…so good night!

 

<3 Lorie