Thursday, August 26, 2010

I'm finishing tonight...

I'm doing today and tomorrow tonight...mostly b/c I want to be done with this...and b/c tomorrow is going to be SUPER busy!!! I'm getting up early to go to Kroger and get a rug doctor...I'm shampooing the carpets and seats in my car...I can't wait! I love feeling like my Ellie is brand new again! I'm having lunch with a friend. I haven't seen her in a very long time..and I am SO excited!!! Tomorrow night I am spending the night with my bestie! We're going to the Brighton game...then we're going to play catch up on my shows I missed this week and do wedding invitations...we're getting them ready so that when it's time to send them out, they can go. Then Saturday we're going to open house at her school and to do some random errands...then Saturday night I'm going to the movies or something with a friend who just happens to be Michael's cousin....so...needless to say...it's going to be busy...but FUN!

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
I'm always trying to improve, but one day I hope to not be so jaded. I know it's hard to do something like that...to "un-jade" yourself lol...but my life has led me to believe that, generally, people can not be trusted. And that's sad, I would like to move past it.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.
I'm not going to do it in letter form...but I will put some things I love about myself...I love my sense of humor...I love my laugh, as loud and obnoxious as it is...I love my feet, they're just the right size and shape...I love my hair, even more so when it's short, but I'm having a wedding and want long hair...I love my eyes...I love my passion...I love my ability to love others....I love myself...and let me just say...with someone in your life that chooses to love you with all his heart...it's very easy to find things you love about yourself.

<3 Lorie

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

I've been out of town...

So first I'll catch up with my 30 days of blogging...
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
In theory, but I've never gone as far as to actually attempt anything like suicide or hurting myself...never really thought about it either...I just in general wanted to give up and crawl under a rock and live forever.


Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Really? I'm getting married.


Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
If I were pregnant, I'd be certain Jesus was coming back! lol. I don't really have that problem...I don't have to worry about it b/c I'm not married yet.

Now that all that is done...just a quick update...I've ordered my garter and my cake topper and so...I'm really mostly done. Whew.

That being said, the past couple of days have been rough. I saw my grandmother, and probably won't see her again for a while. I always knew in the back of my mind that she wouldn't be able to come to my wedding. But to hear people say it, to have it become real is hard. I'm the youngest grandchild. I was the last to graduate, and the las to get married. She has never been able to make it to any of my major life events, because by the time I actually had major life events, she was just too old, and unable to ride for 3 or 4 hours to come. So I knew, I knew she'd never be able to make it. But it still hurts. I feel so blessed to have my wonderful parents and the all the amazing people I have in my life. But I feel a little cheated. I won't have any grandparents at my wedding. 3 of them will never get to see my wonderful future husband. I feel as though they'll never get to experience all the wonderful things that I'll make of my life. And that leaves me sad and a little empty. Like I said, I'm so grateful for all the blessings, it's just hard to know that it's real. That she really won't be there.

Anyway...as sad as that makes me, I am also grateful for all the wonderful times I have with her. I am glad that I at least got to know all my grandparents, some people don't even have that.

Anyway...it's bed time...I haven't slept much so I'm overly emotional anyway....lol.

<3 Lorie

Sunday, August 22, 2010

I'm skipping day 24...day 25 =]

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I don't really understand this question. I guess it would make more sense for someone who wasn't religious...but to me I'm still alive b/c God wants me to be. I think He has a plan, and a few people that I'm supposed to meet and people that are supposed to meet me. So...for now...I'm here.

Now that's done...so I can move on.
I am almost done.
I have two major things left to buy. Cake topper and garter. That's it. There are a few little loose ends, but other than the food, almost everything is done. That makes me so happy. I have shoes, a dress, and a veil. My bridesmaids all have dresses. My groomsmen can order their tuxes. I have stuff to go on the pews, bouquets, a cake, a groom's cake...I mean....it's really almost done. And I'm leaving, so that makes me happy. To know that I'm leaving without a billion things to do.
Michael is coming home to help me get stuff labor day weekend. Yay!!! But we have a lot to do...lots of family to see and spend time with...pictures to take...counselling... so much to do...so little time...but I'm way excited. We have our first counselling session that Saturday of Labor Day weekend...so that should be fun! And we need to look for wedding bands...but we'll have plenty of time for that since we'll finally be in the same city! I'm excited for that...but I'm really going to miss home! Then two weeks after I leave we're going to visit my sister and my nephews! I couldn't be happier!

<3 Lorie

Friday, August 20, 2010

Day 23...

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Umm...I kind of wish I had stuck with being a music ed. major. But again no regrets. If I had, I probably wouldn't have been at Munford Church of Christ exactly when I was, which led me to meeting my future husband. So...needless to say...I am glad I was where I was at that moment. I'm glad that our life paths came together, because now I will have my wonderful family, him, and his wonderful family forever. That makes me so happy.

<3 Lorie

Thursday, August 19, 2010

22.

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I must say, I do not have any of these. I believe we have all made bad choices in our lifetime. However, every choice and decision I have ever made has led me to now. And right now, I am 100 days from marrying the love of my life. I am 17 days away from moving to a new city that even though I will miss home I know I will love. I am about a month away from seeing my wonderful nephews and sister who moved away. Things are going fine, and I love it.

<3 Lorie

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Day 21...I got my wedding shoes today!!!!!

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Umm...of course I visit her in the hospital. But the thing is...although I don't think Ray and I fight much...if she were in an accident...she knows how much I love her...no doubt...so I'd probably be a little upset about the fight...but I wouldn't let it get in the way of me hoping she's okay.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

What day is it again?! (Oh yeah day 20)

Oh my...today has been virtually worthless. Except that I know my shoes for the wedding are in. One more thing to relax about...and I realized that my mom got a lot done here while I was getting a lot done there. She finished all the bouquets and the little flowers that will go on the end of the first couple pews...I love my mom and I'm so grateful for all the help she's giving me. I mean really...I had a good fun day, but I did not productive. I didn't unpack or wash clothes. Nothing.

That being said...
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Drugs are stupid. Unless they're, of course, the kind you need in moderation. I.E. Tylenol, Excedrin, prescriptions, etc...
Alcohol...I said a million different things about it. That it doesn't have to be bad, and in moderation in a social setting it can be fine...blah blah blah...but it's unnecessary and leads to stupid things. I mean, it's easier to just say no.

<3 Lorie

Monday, August 16, 2010

A little bit of catch up...

Sorry I haven't been blogging...I've been in Knoxville and trying to get some things done...

so...here goes...

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Meat. I did the vegetarian thing for a while. I don't mind cutting back. But I was hungry all the time...

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
I will not name a name here...but it's someone that my fiance is friends with. And I could have lived my whole life without him.

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Into the Wild.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
I think it is wrong. I mean, it is a direct command in the old and new testament. I will not judge people because of it, after all who am I to judge someone else? But I am not an advocate.

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
I think highly of both topics. Religion is a lifestyle, and I love it. Politics is a mindset, and I am so amazed I can't stand it sometimes.

That being said...we set up our tux rentals this weekend. Not too much left to do now!!!! =]

<3 Lorie

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Day 14...

Day 14 → A hero that has let you down.

Well..this could be a lot of people I suppose. But...I once knew someone. He was supposed to be a guide to the young and a friend to all. I didn't realize it for a long time, but I had him on a pedestal. Then I realized one day that he was the scum of the earth. He was my hero, in a very human way. And let me down. Extremely. To the point that now I don't even bother to miss him. I know that sounds harsh, and I have forgiven him. But he could never be the same in my eyes.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

13...almost done...

What a project...maybe this was ridiculous to start...but oh well...I'm too far to quit now...

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days.
Back in the day...dashboard confessional was the main one. I loved to hear that guy sing! He always sounded like you could truly feel the pain in his voice from what he was singing. And truthfully, he sounded so hurt that I didn't feel so bad. And Corey Smith. He has songs of every kind. They allow me to cry when I need to and laugh when I need to. There were lots...but those were the two main ones.

<3 Lorie

Monday, August 9, 2010

Day 12...and lots about the wedding.....

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

I never get compliments on fingernails...because I never have time to do them anymore...so they never look very good...

Now on to wedding stuff...it is REALLY coming together! My mom just got done making the bouquets for me, and the bridesmaids. I love them. We have a cake cutter, and and guest book and pen. We have ordered invitations. So if you think, I, or Ms. Mary do not have your address, make sure you send it to me! I have ordered a veil, so my entire ensemble for the wedding is complete, except I'm in need of a bracelet and a garter. I know where I'm going to get them, just haven't yet. Michael and I have a lot to do this weekend. We have to set up the account for the tuxes, and furniture shop. We have lots of little here and there places to go. And we're going to the comedy barn as a treat for us, and our 11 months together as of this coming Thursday. I'm so excited that all these plans are actually looking like a wedding, and not a jumble of supplies!

Please continue to think and pray about my friend Blake. He's moving to a rehab center in Atlanta, hopefully today.

<3 Lorie

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Day 8-11...

I'm not keeping up very well...maybe I shouldn't have started this...but I was bored lol...

First of all, my mother is doing well, and Blake is doing as well as can be expected...so I can breathe again.

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like crap.
Ummm...I don't guess I ever really had that ONE person...I mean...if people treated me like crap I usually dumped them pretty quick...but I have had a few. Only one that I wish I hadn't put up with...but I had to. I won't say her name, but I'm truly thankful she is no longer a part of my life.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Umm...I had a best friend for a long time. His name was Brett. I loved him so much, I can never truly make anyone understand. He was my best friend, my brother. Nothing more, and nothing less. But over the years...I've gotten busy and he's living elsewhere most of the time. We've just grown apart. That makes me sad sometimes. I know we are both at good places in our lives. But there are days when I really miss him.

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Umm...There are people that I wish I had never known, if that's the same thing. There are people, one in particular, that I truly wish I could take back all our times together. Most things, I say live and learn. But him, I wish I could take back every minute ever spent. He was supposed to be a good friend and role model, but turned his back when he should have been there the most. And I can say, he is the one person I wish I truly had no memory of.


Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Umm...lately my hair...b/c it's getting long. But I've always gotten lots of compliments on my eyes. They're blue. Not brown.

<3 Lorie

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Day 7 and a wedding update...

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

I think the answer for this is fairly evident in the reason for the blog...but Michael. Michael has changed my life for the better. I can not wait to spend every day of the rest of my life being married to him.

Now...we went to Low's yesterday. Ray got her dress and my sister ordered hers. Erin, Anna, and Allyson ordered a while back. So that's it. They're done. This weekend I'll set up the account for the boys to get fitted for their tuxes. So if I can just get all of them to get the job done...we'll be good. But they only have to do it about 6-8 weeks in advance I think...so they have plenty of time! A lot more than my bridesmaids ever had and I'm so thankful they all got on board when it really mattered.
But...while at Low's...I found my shoes.THE shoes. They are phenomenal. So...shoes ordered. One more thing off my list...yay!!! And...my mom's recovery is going so much better than planned...she thinks she wants to try and get out this weekend. Not much...just one store. Hobby Lobby...maybe 2..Michael's or Hancock's...b/c we're getting flowers and material b/c she is making my veil. So...really this is all coming together. I love it!!!

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Day 6 and looking for a veil...

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

I hope I never have to give up a child. I know I don't even have one yet, but I have recently watched a few people, either by giving them for adoption or having a falling out at a later time, lose their children. I do not like it. I don't like the way it makes me feel to have to see how sad they are.

On the bright side...I'm going to look for veils today!!!!

<3 Lorie

Monday, August 2, 2010

Day 5

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

I have a lot of things I hope to do in my life. But the one thing is...I hope to raise a beautiful family. I'm starting off on the right foot I suppose...I am marrying someone whom I love very much and I know he will be a great father (someday in the distant future). I'm excited about our new life together...and I know that one day we will have our own wonderful family. I pray that we can provide the same love, care, and advice that we have received from our own parents.

<3 Lorie

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Day 3 and 4...and some love for Blake.

Sorry I didn't post yesterday...but to keep everyone updated...I have a very good friend...his name is Blake Ables and he's in the med here in Memphis. He was in a car accident and he's alive, but still needs a lot of prayers.

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

The thing about that is, I don't have anything left to forgive myself for. I know that sounds like perhaps I'm not giving all the information, but I don't dwell on things, at least not when it comes to myself. I learn from it, and better myself, and keep going. I tend to do that with other people as well. But, I did have a friend. He was, I thought, my truest friend. The kind of guy you could trust in any situation. But it turned out that wasn't true. But through all the lies and hurt...the only thing I can't seem to forgive him for was for not standing up for me. People said a lot of things, and whether or not they were true, he should've been the first one to stand by me, but instead he did nothing. That is what I haven't been able to get past. The nothing.


Anyway...please pray for Blake. He is a dear friend, and may never walk again. But I have hope. He's young, and has great doctors, and has a lot of prayer going his way. I know he can beat this.

<3 Lorie