I've been out of town...

So first I'll catch up with my 30 days of blogging...
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
In theory, but I've never gone as far as to actually attempt anything like suicide or hurting myself...never really thought about it either...I just in general wanted to give up and crawl under a rock and live forever.


Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Really? I'm getting married.


Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
If I were pregnant, I'd be certain Jesus was coming back! lol. I don't really have that problem...I don't have to worry about it b/c I'm not married yet.

Now that all that is done...just a quick update...I've ordered my garter and my cake topper and so...I'm really mostly done. Whew.

That being said, the past couple of days have been rough. I saw my grandmother, and probably won't see her again for a while. I always knew in the back of my mind that she wouldn't be able to come to my wedding. But to hear people say it, to have it become real is hard. I'm the youngest grandchild. I was the last to graduate, and the las to get married. She has never been able to make it to any of my major life events, because by the time I actually had major life events, she was just too old, and unable to ride for 3 or 4 hours to come. So I knew, I knew she'd never be able to make it. But it still hurts. I feel so blessed to have my wonderful parents and the all the amazing people I have in my life. But I feel a little cheated. I won't have any grandparents at my wedding. 3 of them will never get to see my wonderful future husband. I feel as though they'll never get to experience all the wonderful things that I'll make of my life. And that leaves me sad and a little empty. Like I said, I'm so grateful for all the blessings, it's just hard to know that it's real. That she really won't be there.

Anyway...as sad as that makes me, I am also grateful for all the wonderful times I have with her. I am glad that I at least got to know all my grandparents, some people don't even have that.

Anyway...it's bed time...I haven't slept much so I'm overly emotional anyway....lol.

<3 Lorie